Written in Memory: Portraits of the Holocaust

Published to coincide with a major exhibit at the International Center of Photography in New York, Written in Memory is artist Jeff Wolin’s unique tribute to the spirit and courage of those who survived the Holocaust. In these penetrating portraits, words of Holocaust survivors are imprinted directly on the images, like numbers tattooed on forearms and pain etched forever in the memory. Faded snapshots of the survivors…[More at Chronicle Books]

Publisher: Chronicle Books

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Ancient Provence: Layers of History in Southern France

I began actively photographing Roman remains in southern France four years ago. I am interested in depicting anachronism–the ways in which contemporary cultures collide with their past. Roman civilization forms much of the foundation for western civilization by way of engineering, language, law and customs. My photographs refer to these connections. Many Roman roads and bridges…[more]

Introduction by George Dimock
Published by: June Bateman Gallery

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Pigeon Hill: Then & Now

Book & Exhibition – Video

Texts by Keith F. Davis, Jean-Louis Poitevin, Jeffrey A. Wolin
Publisher: Kehrer Verlag

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Pigeon Hill Links 

https://www.zdf.de/kultur/aspekte/aspekte-clip-1-110.html 
http://www.slate.com/blogs/behold/2015/04/10/jeff_woling_pigeon_hill_portraits_then_and_now_examine_the_residents_of.html

http://indianapublicmedia.org/arts/pigeon-hill-living-tale/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kPQjUlCZFIc

http://www.tk-21.com/Pigeon-Hill-Portraits-Then-and-Now

https://vimeo.com/84324735

http://edelmangallery.com/exhibitions-and-projects/exhibition-pages/2014/jeffrey-wolin-pigeon-hill-then-and-now.html

http://www.urbanautica.com/post/101659505024/portraying-memory-photographs-with-a-text

http://blogbuzzter.de/2015/04/pigeon-hill-then-now-2-moment-aufnahmen-in-20-jahren/

http://esquire.ru/pigeon-hill-portraits

http://museemagazine.com/features/2016/6/23/word-play

Pham Hung Ca

“We marched down from our home in Haiphong in the north to Cu Chi west of Saigon. We had many troops around Saigon. My unit, Cat Bi, was based a few kilometers from the tunnels at Cu Chi. I fought as an infantry officer but I was also responsible for speaking to the troops to keep their morale up and encourage bravery. At the same time I spoke to them of tactics and analyzed the outcome of previous battles in order to improve our chances in the next one.

Just two days after we arrived in Cu Chi, we joined the fighting. Our forces attacked an American tank unit on Road Number 22 that runs from Tay Ninh to Saigon. We expected the tanks to move towards Saigon but they changed direction. One of the lessons we learned right away was the need to have fallback plans for every battle. In this case we weren’t prepared for the American tanks to change direction.

We left our base at 6 p.m. and arrived in the area by 3 a.m. It was the dry season so the soil was very hard-you had to be strong to dig a foxhole deep enough so that only your head was above ground. The weaker soldiers were unable to dig deep enough to completely shield themselves but weak or strong, we all had strong determination to fight.

About 8 a.m. on May 6, 1968, the fight began. It was our first battle. We destroyed seven American tanks with B-40 Rocket Propelled Grenades. An eighth tank was destroyed with a Chinese-made hand grenade-we had to approach very close, about two meters. In addition to the eight tanks, we shot down three helicopters. Cat Bi suffered 23 casualties, dead and wounded.

We withdrew in the night and returned the next morning with local villagers to collect the bodies. We buried the dead in a field. After the war, burial units returned to the area to dig up the remains for a proper burial.

I was wounded twice. The first time was September 1968, when Cat Bi attacked an American base. As we cut the fence a bullet grazed my head. The second time was more serious. We surrounded the Americans but they called in artillery. I was hit in the back by shrapnel. One large and several small pieces of metal are still lodged in my chest.”

Nguyen Van Phuoc

“About midnight a helicopter landed and American soldiers entered our village, Xuan Khe. On that night when the soldiers moved into the village they took Mr. Tuyen, an old man, to the bank of the river and struck him on the head, killing him immediately. Then they killed Mr. Tuyen’s wife. They moved to another home, arrested Mr. To, Mr. Huong and Mrs. Thai. They beat the men, then shot all three. In another house they killed Mrs Loi and her three children. Next door they killed Mrs. Xu and her two children. Then they shot my mother in the head, killing her. Her name was Lan. The American soldiers killed 13 people that night, all women, children and old people. This was in August 1967. I was 9 years old.

Three days earlier an American force had entered the village and set fire to all our houses. They wanted to relocate us due to the presence of guerillas and local army forces in the area. They were clearing the area of civilians so we couldn’t provide support for them. We moved to another village but quickly returned home.

On the day of the killings an American patrol was attacked by guerillas on the mountain about 5 kilometers from here. We were in our bunkers in the village but we could hear the shooting. We were still in our underground bunkers that night when the helicopter landed. First the soldiers threw grenades in the bunkers. As the villagers came out they were arrested, then killed.

I was in a bunker when I heard all the noise. I came up and saw what was happening about 50 meters away. I hid with my younger brother in a large clay jar that my family used to store rice. I ran with my brother on my back—that’s when I saw the soldiers beating Mr. Tuyen by the river. It was the middle of the night but the moon was full.

My brother and I went to stay with our grandmother. When the Americans set fire to our village three days earlier, she went to stay at a village 10 kilometers away and on the night the Americans attacked, she was still at that village. From that night my grandmother raised my brother and me.”

Tran Dung Hung

“After I graduated from high school I went to work at a tea plantation in Hoa Binh. I met Lan there and we became close friends. We enlisted in the army on the same day in 1967 and walked south together for two months on the Ho Chi Minh Trail. I was smaller than Lan so he helped me carry my gun. He’d have one in front and one behind and told me it was easier to carry two—they balanced each other out. But actually he carried my gun because he loved me and wanted to help. We were in the same company and fought the enemy together in Quang Tri south of the DMZ.

One afternoon Lan and I agreed that if I lived and he did not that I would please remember to visit his home and talk with his father to tell him what happened. I should not tell his mother because she had suffered a heart attack and her heart was weak.

In 1971 I returned home in the north but Lan remained behind in Quang Tri. While I was in my hometown one of my friends from the war visited and told me that Lan died. So we went to visit Lan’s family but didn’t tell them Lan had died. Lan’s mother asked that my friend bring Lan a gift and we were afraid that if he didn’t take the gift and pretend to deliver it to her son, she would suspect Lan had died. She sent tobacco as a gift and we knew another soldier in the unit could use the tobacco.

A few years after Lan’s death the government sent a letter to his parents informing them of his death. His father received the letter but kept silent and did not tell his wife. He kept the letter hidden in a box for a few years but Lan’s mother eventually found out about her son’s death anyway.

I first began to write poetry in 1967 after I enlisted. I wrote about love, friendship, family and war. I became more passionate about these things because of my war experiences. Over time the poems became more powerful, more passionate and more human because of the war.”

Nguyen Chi Phi

“In 1967, our unit attacked the base at Trieu Phong in Quang Tri province. It was a base of southern regime soldiers and American military advisors who were collecting information about our forces. My unit was Dac Cong, Special Forces. Our responsibility was to approach close to the target and attack. I was a 2nd Lieutenant at that time.

A few days earlier we had sent soldiers to observe and make maps of the enemy positions. Using these maps we approached the base, which had twelve layers of barbed wire fence. On the other side of the base, another Dac Cong unit prepared to attack. We broke through three layers of fence but the fourth layer was illuminated by a bright searchlight. We couldn’t penetrate any further without being seen so we changed our plan.

The Dac Cong unit on the other side of the base began their assault. A comrade and I began to throw grenades with string fuses to destroy the fences. We got close to one watchtower when the soldiers inside began to open fire and threw a grenade at us. I jumped aside as it exploded and then threw my explosives inside the watchtower. A piece of shrapnel hit my back. When we had gotten past the first layer of fence I stepped on a pungi stick, which slightly injured my foot. So I was injured twice in the battle.

After I was hit by shrapnel, the Saigon soldiers counterattacked. I ordered my troops to shoot out the searchlight but they couldn’t so I took a B-40 grenade launcher without the round, quickly climbed the tower and smashed the light so we could withdraw without being seen. As the unit leader I accepted the possibility of my death in order to protect my unit. My comrades carried me out since I was wounded. I was taken to a hospital in the jungle for one month and then spent three months in rehabilitation at another base in Quang Tri. I was awarded the status of National Hero of the Army.

Right after the battle we returned to the village nearby where we were living among civilians. The villagers killed a cow to make a feast for us to celebrate our victory. The soldiers and villagers were like fish and water—we depended upon each other. Not long after we attacked the base at Trieu Phong the American and Saigon troops came and killed the villagers for supporting us.”

Nguyen Thi Tham

“I joined Biet Dong, the resistance force in the cities of the south, in 1966 when I was 16. As a cover, I worked in Da Nang as a housekeeper for a family that owned a construction business. I cleaned the house and took care of the children. But my real mission was to dig bunkers in safe houses to hide weapons I smuggled in along with other girls in Biet Dong. We guided soldiers into Da Nang and found bunkers for them to hide in. The family I was housekeeper for did not know of my work for Biet Dong. After a year I had to tell them the truth: that I had joined the army to fight for liberation. They had suspected something was wrong, with so many people coming and going all the time. I asked them to support my mission and they agreed.

Before Tet in 1968, the police suspected me and I was arrested on the street and held for 15 days. They questioned me but I told them I was just a housekeeper and didn’t say anything about my real work. I was tortured but told them nothing.

On the morning of December 26, 1968, I was at the house of Mother Nhu in a bunker under the floor. A spy had denounced Mother Nhu and police surrounded her house. They broke in, arrested her son and beat him. He didn’t say anything and they took him away. Then they arrested and beat Mother Nhu. She also revealed nothing about her activities for Biet Dong. The police shot her in her home.

I was hiding in the bunker with two other soldiers. We could hear everything that was going on upstairs. After they killed Mother Nhu we burst out of the bunker and threw grenades at the police. Some were killed immediately as we fled the house. There were many police in the area and a helicopter overhead told us to surrender. The police shot tear gas to try to capture us but we fired our weapons at them. American soldiers began to chase us too.

While we were running, one of my comrades was badly wounded. We tried to carry him but he said he couldn’t move. He asked for two grenades and we left him. As the police and soldiers approached he detonated the grenades killing himself and several soldiers.

The whole area was surrounded—they wanted to capture us alive. As it grew dark, I covered myself head to toe in mud and leaves. My hair was long then and disturbed me while I was fleeing so I cut it off with a knife that I found in someone’s abandoned home. A few pieces of shrapnel from an M79 grenade landed nearby and struck me in the head and rear end. I used mud to stop the bleeding. Along with my remaining comrade I crawled slowly on the road to the cemetery. Soldiers ran right by but didn’t notice us. It took from 6 p.m. to 4 a.m. the next day to escape.”

Ho Phuc Ngon

“The first battle I fought in was in 1954 in Quang Nam, just outside Da Nang. Our forces defeated the French at the Battle of Bo Bo. I served on a suicide team of three men-we were sure we would die. We wore red scarves over our shoulders to signify that we were Cam Tu, suicide fighters. We carried explosives onto the French base. When we arrived at the base that night I was spotted by a French soldier. We fought hand-to-hand but I was young and trained in martial arts and I prevailed.

Before the battle, our suicide team had high spirits; we were determined to carry out our mission. We were fortunate that our troops killed all the French soldiers and we did not have to detonate the explosives we carried. That is why I am still alive today.

I remained in the army after the French War. When the American War began, my job was to penetrate the American bases. I was Dac Cong, Special Forces. I was leader of a four-man team. We would quietly approach the bases at night, crawl in slowly and cut the fences-there could be three or four layers of barbed wire. We disabled the flares and mines surrounding the bases so our main force could attack.

In March 1966, American reinforcements arrived in Da Nang and about 25 artillery pieces were sent to build up a base at the village at Thanh Vinh. They were 105 mm and 155 mm artillery.

At midnight on June 17, 1966, we attacked the base at Thanh Vinh, 5 kilometers from Da Nang. I led a group of about 60 Dac Cong. We broke into the base from three directions and destroyed seven artillery pieces. The battle was short-it was over in 25 minutes. I fought in many battles in both the French and American Wars.”

Nguyen Vin Luc

“We walked the Ho Chi Minh Trail through Laos to get south of the DMZ. I was in Da Nang, Quang Ngai and Quang Tin. We lived in tunnels during periods of bombing. Otherwise our quarters were built half-below and half-above the ground and we stayed there when there was no bombing. It was in a thick forest. We weren’t worried about being attacked by ground troops.

The tunnels were “A” shaped, 2-3 meters deep and 3-4 meters wide-we could walk upright in them. There were many tunnels-they were connected by trenches dug into the ground but uncovered.

During battles I would fight as a regular soldier-I had an AK-47. But when someone was wounded I was a medic. I would give them something for the pain, dress their wounds and help carry them back to the base for further treatment. Sometimes the American helicopters would fire rockets at our base but they never hit near the hospital. They never found our tunnels in that thick forest.

In that part of Vietnam during the monsoons we got heavy rain. One time two of us were carrying a wounded comrade on a litter and it was raining very hard. A helicopter shot at us. We hid my friend by the base of a tree and covered him with our bodies to protect him from the rockets. I was hit once in the head with shrapnel but it wasn’t serious.

If someone died we also carried them back four or five hundred meters from the battle zone where someone else took care of the body. The dead were buried in the south and a map was made of the graves so families could locate their loved ones later and give them a proper burial.

During the war we didn’t have enough food to eat so our bodies were not as strong as usual. We all got malaria but we didn’t have enough medicine to treat the disease. It took until two years after the war before the malaria was completely gone from my body. I lost all my hair; my eyes turned yellow and my skin green. All of us caught the disease. We had to fight anyway.

After the war I returned home to work as a farmer and rebuild my hometown-so many years of fighting but now the world is at peace.”

Ngo Huy Phat

“During the Tet Offensive of 1968, I served as Chief of the Division to organize the plan for the Battle of RN 9 near the DMZ in Quang Tri province. The purpose was to stop the movements of the American soldiers so they could not cross Route 9, which ran from the coast to Laos.

We had sent in regiment after regiment until we had the whole division in the area. Finally we got closer and closer to Dong Ha. Our unit faced difficulties. The American defenses were very strong and the area near the base was just sand with nothing to conceal our troops. So we dug in under the sand at night. During the day the sunshine made the temperature very hot.

Everything was very difficult for the Vietnamese soldiers but we appeared suddenly and the Americans were surprised by our attack. The battle was Tien Tanh of Cua Viet-it means the surprise attack of the Cua Viet River. Our troops were buried in the sand the whole day and that night we came out and surprised the Americans.

We knew very well the organization of the American defenses in the Cua Viet area, which was protected by an electric fence. The water level in the river was not so deep. The American side had artillery and bombs all day and even at night so to avoid that we went where the water was deeper. We attacked where the American bombs and artillery had damaged the fence. We went through the wires.

We understood the schedule of the bombings and artillery and waited until they stopped. We took off all our clothes and crossed the river with everything carried on our heads. When we got across the bombing started again. Once we got to the other side of the fence we put our clothes on.

Our special forces that led the attack were naked and covered with mud from head to toe. They coordinated their movements to make no noise. During the artillery barrage if one of the soldiers was wounded or killed the one behind him would carry him back but always we were moving forward. We had to do everything we could to fulfill the mission.”

For months we kept the supply line cut to the American base at Khe Sanh. The Americans had to focus on trying to get troops and supplies to Khe Sanh.”

Le Thi Duc

“All the adults in my family were still in Hanoi-the children were staying outside the city to avoid the bombings. At 10 or 10:30 on the night of December 26, 1972, when we heard the anti-aircraft guns and then the sirens we rushed to the shelters. I heard a big explosion and the shelter collapsed and buried us. In my shelter there were four of us: my older brother, my sister and her husband, and me. They all died-only I was rescued.

When I woke up my legs couldn’t move because of the rubble. My back was bent because of the weight of the debris. I was unconscious for six hours from the time of the explosion until I was awakened by the voices of the rescuers. I spent the next year in the hospital.

On that day, my father and younger brother, who had been staying in the countryside, came back to Hanoi to get food for the children. My father returned to the countryside but my brother stayed in Hanoi that evening and was killed. He was fifteen. My mother died too-they were in a nearby shelter.

There were many shelters all over the city. Every night for over a week when the sirens went off we headed to the shelters immediately. We were all very worried but we stayed in Hanoi to work. I was employed by the government.

When I returned to my home after I was released from the hospital, the whole neighborhood still lay in ruins. My home had collapsed. We lived in a tent and collected the bricks to rebuild our home. I didn’t marry after my sister died. She and her husband had four small children between the ages of two and six. I spent my time raising her children as my own. They are my children now.”

Dao Ngoc Khue

“We left Da Nang in March 1975. I was in command of a unit of weapons technicians. When we passed through Nha Trang we were welcomed by the civilians. We were happy because we received orders from the Army command to speed up our drive to Saigon. We felt like a typhoon moving quickly south.

By noon on April 30, my unit was at Tan Son Nhut Airport outside Saigon. Two helicopters had just taken off and we captured a plane with the engine still running and no one on board. We secured the airport and in the afternoon we moved towards the city to secure the Ministry of Defense building. We met with very little resistance along the way.

When we reached Saigon, civilians crowded into the streets to welcome us. They waved flags and offered us drinks and food. We asked civilians for directions to the Ministry of Defense. I remember one girl, about 19, on a motorbike offered to show us the way. She took one of the soldiers on the back of her bike and led us. All the trucks followed her. By the time we arrived, the Ministry of Defense had been abandoned. After we secured it my unit moved on to the intelligence services building and spent the night there; we secured all the files.

On the day of liberation, the 30th of April all Vietnamese were happy and shouted, ‘Independence!’ We finally had freedom. I had fought in the French War and the American War. I had been badly burned by napalm. I shared the joy but I had my own private feelings as well. My family had lived in Saigon throughout the war and I hadn’t seen them in many years. The day after liberation I went looking for my parents.

I went to the area where they lived when I left to fight but they were not there any longer. I asked the neighbors and they sent me to another place, and then another. Finally I found my parents. I knelt down and told them, ‘I fulfilled my duty to our nation but I failed to take care of you.’ My parents said, ‘No, no, no. Stand up. You fulfilled your obligation to our country and that was more important than your responsibility to your family.’ We hugged each other and wept.”

Bui Thi Tron

“For three years I escorted the soldiers from the north to the south and the wounded from south to north. My unit was based in the jungle, one day’s walk from Da Nang, south of the DMZ. We carried the wounded on litters from base to base in the jungle. It took the whole day. We left in the morning from our base and arrived at another in the late afternoon. A soldier went ahead to clear a trail for us with a machete. Ten of us carried five soldiers. They were seriously wounded-some were missing limbs.

It was hard for women. At first we marched south from Thai Binh province to the south, always on foot, through the jungle along the Ho Chi Minh Trail. We would rest every ten days and take a shower every ten days. For women to go that long without a shower after walking in the jungle, you can imagine how hard that was. We had to carry everything-food, weapons-the same as the men. At that time I weighed 50 kgs.

Many women volunteered during the war. I thought everyone should defend our country. It was hard work and also dangerous but I felt happy to do it. Many times we were in the area where B-52’s were bombing and sometimes we were surrounded by American soldiers. Once, in 1972, our unit was carrying wounded soldiers through the jungle in Quang Binh province when B-52 bombers came in and we had to move fast, carrying wounded and our weapons. That night soldiers from our unit, some of them women, were wounded, so they stayed behind until they could be retrieved.

I was near the airport at Da Nang when the city was liberated on March 29, 1975. I went into Da Nang to join in the celebration on April 1. Everyone was delighted-I can’t describe how happy we were. The people of Da Nang greeted us and were very happy. The women wore ao dai, traditional Vietnamese clothing. They waved flags and threw flowers. We knew the war would soon be over.

The jungle we operated in was sprayed often with Agent Orange. The trees lost their leaves and the people from that area told us it was because the water was contaminated by dioxin. Now my health is poor. My stomach is not so good and I have pain in my backside and up and down my legs, It started more than ten years ago.

The war has already passed and we try to rebuild our country but still the war victims of Agent Orange have problems up to the third generation of the veterans: our children and grandchildren. Please tell the American people about the victims here who are still suffering.”

Le Nam Phong & Nguyen Van Thai

Phong: At Dien Bien Phu in 1954 we used new tactics to defeat the French. We attacked Him Lam and Doc Lap hills and cut the airport off. The airport was like the stomach of the French. By cutting it off we cut off their means of resupply. Then we squeezed the French into one part of the base. My main responsibility was to organize our troops to dig trenches from the surrounding hills into the airport. We captured many French soldiers in the hills in the first round of the battle. The French fired artillery at our positions and injured and killed many of our soldiers. The French brought in paratroopers. They had better weapons, planes and tanks but we were determined to defeat them.

Thai: I was involved in the plans for the first attack at Dien Bien Phu. We drove the French out and years later in July 1965, I moved south of the DMZ as the American forces began to arrive in large numbers. We were stationed along Road Number 9. I was responsible for analyzing our battle plans and keeping up the morale of the troops. We surrounded the American base at Khe Sanh and attacked Tacon Airport at the start of Tet ’68. We hoped to draw many American forces from all around the south to Khe Sanh. That was our plan so Vietnamese inside cities in the south would rise up against the Saigon regime.

In April 1968, our unit broke off the siege of Khe Sanh and went to Kon Tum in the Central Highlands. We were reinforced by fresh troops from the north who remained in the area around Khe Sanh. Our goal had been to tie up American troops and resources defending the base even as we attacked cities all over the south. It was the biggest battle of the war. We used large artillery every day against the Americans. At the same time American B-52’s bombed us and American artillery shelled our positions. At first the B-52’s struck a few hours a day but by the end of the battle they were bombing around the clock. Many men died on both sides.

Phong: In March ’75, we liberated Phuoc Long province and drew closer to Saigon, 100 kilometers away. I was a Senior Lieutenant Colonel and my division was to seize the Presidential Palace and raise the Vietnamese flag on the roof but we were held up at a bridge outside the city and arrived at noon, half an hour after another unit had already captured the palace.

Thai: I was in the same division as Phong. We arrived at the Presidential Palace 30 minutes after it had been captured. We went through Bien Hoa but our tanks were too large to cross the bridge there so we had to go around a different way. Our forces approached Saigon from five directions. Our division had been given the honor of entering Saigon first, capturing the Presidential Palace and raising the flag because our unit was distinguished in the French War-we captured the French general at Dien Bien Phu and raised the flag over his bunker.

Phong was in charge of the fighting while my main role was developing strategy and encouraging the troops. We lived and fought together during the war so we developed a close friendship.

Phong: In my life as a soldier I had two major accomplishments: in 1954 at Dien Bien Phu in the decisive battle against the French and in 1975 when we liberated Saigon. Many citizens waved flags and cheered as we entered the city. The Saigon regime soldiers fled. It was the second time in my life as a soldier that I was happy. I was glad that Thai was with me to share our victory.

Hue Ngoc Tran

“When I was a kid in Hue after World War II, I witnessed the French and Viet Minh doing bad things. The Viet Minh ambushed the French, captured prisoners, took their possessions and buried them alive. On the other side I saw the French burn houses, kill civilians, rape women-in front of my eyes. Those scenes were carved in my mind and I decided when I grow up I will serve in the Army. I was admitted to the National Military

In 1968 I commanded the Black Panther Company, Hac Bao, 1st ARVN Division Reaction Force. We were in Hue during the first Tet Offensive when all 44 provinces of South Vietnam were under attack. They wanted to occupy Hue at any price. We had the 1st ARVN Division in Hue but the NVA still tried to get into the Citadel. The battle lasted 25 days. We fought using new tactics, in the street, block by block. I’m telling you this in a few words but in those days each minute, each second would last a long time. You would advance just a few feet. It was bloody. We fought with hand grenades, bayonets-close combat.

First night we saved some US soldiers. They were security at the small airfield at Hue City. The airfield was overrun by NVA and they ran to my unit. We took care of them. They had a language difference, big guys, and could have been killed by friendly fire. I received a Silver Star from General Abrams, US Military Commander in Vietnam. My government presented me with the Medal of Honor for the Battle of Hue.

In 1971 during the Battle of Lam Son 719, our regiment’s mission was to protect Highway 9 from Dong Ha to Khe Sanh. The ARVN Airborne and Marine Divisions were assigned the front axis across the border in Tchepone, Laos, but they were attacked and cut down. I was ordered to take my battalion, drop into the main operation and attack the NVA.

Before we landed B52’s had dropped bombs. We controlled the main road to Tchepone and after a couple of days we were headed south to help two battalions surrounded by the NVA. We helicoptered in and secured an area for them to withdraw back to Vietnam. My battalion went to help 1st Battalion 3rd Regiment but then we were surrounded by the NVA. Three times helicopters came to try to get us but a lot of choppers were shot down-we couldn’t get out. It was summer and there was no water-we could not survive without water.

I’m left-handed. When my battalion was surrounded I was holding the handset in my left hand communicating with Cobra helicopters. I called them to counter attack. One mortar hit between me and my radio operator. I was thrown backwards and hit with many pieces of shrapnel. Finally I was captured and spent the next 13 years in prison camp.”

Hieu Vinh

“I joined the army at 18 so I could choose the branch I wanted, which was the Air Force. I became a helicopter gunship pilot stationed at Nha Trang near Cam Ranh Bay. I was the squadron leader. We escorted troops on combat missions and destroyed many enemy targets. There were many battles.

In April 1975, just before Saigon fell, I was sent with three choppers to protect Tan Son Nhut airbase in Saigon. In the evening of April 29 around 6 o’clock we saw two South Vietnamese jets fly over Tan Son Nhut and drop bombs on the base—they must have been commandeered by the enemy. About 2 o’clock in the morning, the NVA shelled the base with artillery and mortars—thousands of rounds. I jumped in a foxhole and stayed for 3-4 hours—the shells were exploding everywhere.

At 8 a.m. on April 30, we gathered to discuss the situation. I saw a C-119 gunship in the air get hit by a surface-to-air missile and crash in front of my eyes. Two hours later they sent me with three choppers to fly around Tan Son Nhut base to see what was happening and protect the base. I realized it was hopeless and decided to fly to Con Son Island. We got lost on the way there and almost ran out of fuel but we were lucky and were picked up by a British tanker. We only had 20 minutes of fuel left.

My family was left behind in Vietnam. I felt guilty that I didn’t take them with me when I flew out of the country. For ten years afterwards, I dreamed constantly about flying my helicopter to take my family to freedom. In some dreams I landed on top of my house to pick up my family. Once they arrived here in the U.S. the dreams stopped.

We fought the war but we could not win because the Americans gave up on the war. If we had enough ammunition and weapons we never would have lost the war. The American government abandoned us and left us there to fend for ourselves. We don’t blame America. We were just victims of the political situation.”

Hung Pho Do

“I was the last one left in my army camp in Da Nang. I had the conscience to stay and fight so I remained when everyone else left. This night, the 28th of March, the guerillas bombed Da Nang. They had infiltrated Da Nang and made a revolt. Everywhere in Da Nang there were bombs going off including the airport. So people got scared and fled.

When I saw my camp was empty, I left. I went to Tien Sa, the naval base at Da Nang to look for a boat. Along the shore I see many horrible things-I see a pregnant woman dead on the beach. The bombs killed many civilians.

There was an American boat off shore we could see but the communists had taken our ARVN boat and fired at the American boat to keep it away. I didn’t have any way to get to it.

I was wearing civilian clothes that I picked up—there were many clothes along the shore. I tore up my military papers and threw them in the sea. I was 30 years old and the communists knew that everyone around that age was in the military.

The guerillas who had infiltrated Da Nang grabbed me. From 8 to 6 o’clock I had nothing to eat or drink. After 6 o’clock the tanks arrived-many, many NVA tanks. I was captured along with some naval officers and marines. There were hundreds of us.

They transferred us from camp to camp. We didn’t stay in any camp for very long. We had to walk. We had no shoes. My feet were bloody. Many camps, many camps, 7 years 3 months in the camps.”

Zung Dao

“Late afternoon of April 29, 1975, after 3 days of recon in Nhi Binh, on the way back to our base camp at Pier 18 outskirts of Saigon with a ‘borrowed jeep’, the team dropped me off at my home in Saigon’s Fifth district.

The next morning, April 30th on the way to the base camp, I drove to a childhood friend’s home, where I had asked two Special Forces buddies of mine to stay at his family estate during their R&R as requested for his family’s protection while I was away. I found out that my friend and his family already had left Viet Nam, and staying there now was my friend’s aunt and her family of seven, whom I had met a few times in Da Nang. Capt. Long, a harbor pilot, who was married to my friend’s aunt, asked me for my assistance to escort him and his family to the Saigon River to find a way to get out of Viet Nam, which I agreed to.

Chaos was choking Saigon: gunfire, explosions, cannon shelling echoing from everywhere. We drove up and down the road along the Saigon River for a while to look for any sign of a ship we might possibly board until we saw some activity at the 10-foot tall cement sidewall on gated Pier 5. I went down to investigate, and there it was: a man-made hole about three meters in diameter with three Marines guarding it. Capt. Long paid a small entrance fee’ to get though into a huge, almost emptied pier with a cargo ship named Viet Nam Thuong Tin. It just returned from India at the dock awaiting its captain to return with his family. We rushed to board it with about 350 others already on it within minutes hundreds and hundreds of people poured in from the front gate. They overwhelmed the dozen marine guards who kept shooting their machine guns into the air trying to stop them, without effect. The desperate people were rushing to the ship as the First Mate in a panic ordered the ladder to be pulled up and the anchor lines chopped to free the ship from the dock as it drifted away from the pier.

Around 11 a.m., about ten seemingly eternal minutes after the ship undocked, someone was pointing to and shouting at the row of Soviet-made tanks with NVA flags on them crossing the Saigon bridge en route to the heart of Saigon, as the First Mate sailed the ship away with its Captain looking on hopelessly from the pier with his wife and his two children at his side. Â As we were heading toward the sea, the ship’s portside was hit with three rockets. One blew a six-foot hole mid-ship at the water line, disabling the hydraulic steering. Â Another rocket hit the bottom of the second deck killing a famous Vietnamese writer and his grandchild and wounding several others. The third embedded in the upper portside bow but did not explode. The ship was drifting aimlessly toward the bank of the river for a few minutes, and luckily, the now-captain started to gain control of the ship with the back-up electrical steering system; we finally got to the sea and reached international waters in the late afternoon and heard on the BBC news that the South Vietnamese President, Duong Van Minh, had surrendered. After the ship’s captain radioed the US Navy Seventh fleet for advice and consulted with some high-ranking officers on board, the ship limped for three days to the US naval base in Subic Bay, Philippines for repair and supply for another journey to the refugee camp in Guam and from there to an unknown future that lay ahead for me.”

Y Dak Bya

“The Viet Cong lived in the jungles nearby. When the South Vietnamese troops came to our village they suspected and beat us and they killed our animals. They treat us badly. After they moved away the Viet Cong communists come to our village and they say we are in contact with government troops. How can we live like that? The two sides oppressed us. It made us angry.

The Americans helped the Montagnards defend our villages. After 1966 when the big fighting began in Vietnam all of the Montagnard units could not live in the countryside anymore. I joined the Army, joined the Mobile Strike Force. They trained me to be in a recon team and I was assigned as a recon team leader. They taught us how to use a compass; how to read maps; how to use rifle; how to find enemy tracks. I worked for 4 or 5 years as a weapons instructor on the Mike Force Training Command out of An Khe.

In 1975 when Saigon collapsed, I go back to Central Highlands, to my village and returned to farming. Twenty-eight years later somebody who knew what my background was in the war told the Vietnamese and they start to make trouble with me. They said I protected the Americans and that I am a member of CIA. I never work for the CIA. I’m just a farmer. They suspect that I stay in contact with the Americans because in 2000 I traveled to Saigon to contact a colleague there to promote Montagnard culture. And they suspect me and they say, ‘Ok your job is good but you still use that job to contact the Americans.’ They don’t believe me and put me in jail on August 30, 2002 for two months-tied my hands up and threw me in jail. They thought I worked for Kok Ksor, President of Montagnard Foundation in the US, but I never did.

After I got out of jail they kept an eye on me. I went back to farming. One day they held a meeting in the village and they forced all of the villagers to renounce the Christian religion. They took all our bibles and told us not to believe in God any more-just believe Ho Chi Minh. They made a little festival with rice wine and played music and declared the Montagnards don’t believe in God any more.

Two of the communists-the village chief and chief of police-grab me and force me to sit down and drink rice wine with them. I said, ‘What do you want to do with me? If you want to kill me, give me a cup of poison. I’ll take it right away.’ And I stood up and left. They were angry with me. Then two days later I fled to the jungle-I lived 17 months in the jungle. Every weekend my family bring me food and water. I hide in the bush near an abandoned farm. I lived like an animal. I had a hut and a little pan to cook my food over a fire. The government was looking for me. They made a reward of 50,000,000 dong for anyone who can find me or kill me because they said I was dangerous for the government.”

Trung Ngo

“On the last day of the war many soldiers on my base were still working normally but when we heard Duong Van Minh surrendered, everybody tried to get home. Like all the others I was looking for a plan to escape. We decided to fly my helicopter to the Con Dao islands off the southern coast where a US Navy ship was docked. There were fourteen of us.

We took off but my helicopter didn’t have enough fuel to make it to Con Son, the main island. When I realized I couldn’t make it to Con Son, I looked at the fuel gauge and saw it was on empty. We were all nervous but I was able to crash land on a small island nearby. When we touched down, the tail half hit the water and the head just made it onto the land.

We had to swim to the big island, three or four miles away. We grabbed two logs and seven of us swam holding onto one log and seven onto the other. When we got to Con Son it took a few days to walk to the military base since we didn’t have any clothes or boots-we had stripped down to our underwear so we could swim. We were looking for another helicopter to fly us to where the US ship was supposed to be.

When we arrived at the base, VC prisoners who had been freed when Saigon fell arrested us. They had AK-47’s and M-16’s too. I told them I was a fisherman but they could tell by my fair skin that I was lying. I was sent to a camp. Several times in prison they bound my hands and blindfolded me; they put me in a hole at night and told me they were going to shoot me but each time they took me back to the camp. They killed some of the other prisoners.

I spent six years in prison camps on the island. Then they moved me to Soc Trang for a year and finally to Kihn Nam. I was there until they released me. I was an ARVN helicopter pilot for only three years but I spent twelve years in prison camps after the war. I came to America in 1992.

I am grateful to the US for giving me a second chance at a better life. Although it was hard at first, it got easier as I became an American and I felt patriotism in my own blood. The US is a paradise that is a platform for personal development and happiness.”

Life at the Millennium

Photographers have made pictures of their children since the invention of the medium. I began the process of recording my children’s lives since their births 13 and 10 years ago, respectively. As I was concluding most of the creative work on my portrait series of Holocaust survivors, I focused on my children as subjects. I felt the need to focus on something more hopeful after dealing so long with the tragedy of the Holocaust. My older son, Ben, was learning to read and write. He was also at the age where many rites of passage occurred such as losing his first tooth and learning to ride a bike.

My long-standing investigation into ways of combining text with photographs led me to the idea of letting my sons write on the prints (beginning 1996). I wanted to know what their perceptions of the scenes being depicted were–I was curious to know if they were similar to mine. In time both boys were at work on this series. The original idea of drawing on them belongs to Ben. I am fascinated by the way that the drawn images interact and sometimes collide with the photographs.

In addition to threshold events, the photographs depict everyday experiences in the lives of ordinary kids growing up at an extraordinary time–America on the brink of the 21st century. I notice that the photographs document the way the boys have learned to think, the growth of their penmanship and vocabulary. The pieces also show how different the boys are from one another, and how much, despite their fighting and sibling rivalry, they love each other. Now that Ben has entered adolescence, he is less willing to participate-his privacy is important to him. It will be interesting to see how much longer the project will continue.

It fascinates me to see how my earlier autobiographical series, which addresses my own childhood, relates to the evolving work with my sons. Together they explore differing perceptions of childhood across a generation at the brink of the next millennium.

John Linnemeier

“Everybody was nervous. We knew there was a possibility of getting hit unlike being back at some base camp. We knew it was dangerous but nothing really happened that night. They woke me up for guard duty and there was a Hispanic kid on the ACAV, Armored Cavalry Assault Vehicle, and I said, ‘How’s it going?’ and he said, ‘Quiet. Everything’s quiet.’ I said, ‘OK. I’m coming up.’ I go up on the front of the ACAV and he opened up. I have no idea why. He wasn’t angry at me-it was not that kind of situation. Actually, we were friends. I don’t know if his finger slipped. I have no explanation-it’s just crazy.

It blew me backwards and I was unconscious. I woke up and the pain was unspeakable. I’d go off and come back, off and back. One guy that came up to me told me I’d taken five rounds which was wrong and then he goes, ‘You’re going to be all right.’ And I just thought, ‘Fuck, man. I don’t want to die with this guy. I don’t want to die with this bullshit.’ I said, ‘Sarge, please go. I’ve got to have a pure moment here. This is no time for shit.’

A lot of things happened actually in that period of time. The most important was that I thought, ‘You can’t put it off any longer. Do you believe in God? It’s not an academic question.’ And I thought about it: No, I didn’t believe. Nothing has been revealed to me, so I’m not going to go out crawling and I’m not going to go out lying. There are people I love and I believe in that. That’s as much as I’ve got.

A lot of people have said the same thing: that you get to a point and there’s a decision about whether you want to live or not. First off, you’re scared shitless because you exist and then you’re not going to exist-scary. But then you get to a point where you’re not fearful at all. Maybe you live and maybe you don’t live but everything is fine. It really is fine. Then it’s just a matter of whether you did what you had to or didn’t. And I just had this feeling that I hadn’t had a child, hadn’t had a son. A son! I didn’t even have a girlfriend. I just went, ‘Can’t die yet.’ So everything flowed from that moment, I believe.

Then there’s this other Hispanic guy and he didn’t say a word. Just held my hand and that was what I needed, because that was truth-he felt for me and I knew it. He held my hand through the whole thing. And then they loaded me on the chopper. Since it was a chest wound they didn’t want to depress my breathing so that meant nothing for the pain. The only way I can give you insight into how bad it was-I was a young guy, full of life, and I can remember feeling that it hurt so badly that if I did die, it wouldn’t be all bad because it would quit hurting. So that’s bad.

I got to this field hospital and they were doing this, that and the other to me and there was a nurse there and a doctor who had no experience. I was like his first case or something-you could just tell. It was scary because you want him to know what’s going on. The nurse had been there for a while. They put a tube in my back to drain this stuff out and every once in a while they’d have to roll me over and I can’t tell you how much that hurt. And I yelled, ‘Oh, Jesus Christ!’ And this nurse said, ‘Watch your language. Can’t you control yourself?’ And they’d roll me back and I screamed, ‘Oh God! Jesus Christ!’ And then the nurse says to the doctor, ‘Doctor, can’t you make him stop saying those words?’ And the doctor says to me, ‘You’re in the presence of a lady!’ It was the craziest thing I ever heard. I’m not bitching. When I look at the scar, it’s slipshod and it looks like they cut it open with a garden shears but it was enough. It got me through. I’ve got no hard feelings…

Twenty years later I did go back to Vietnam and I got a chance to experience the country and the people from an utterly different perspective. For me it was not any kind of pilgrimage. I just travel a lot. I love Southeast Asia. You can rent a car with other veterans and share the expenses and have a driver-it’s the best way to see the country.

We went up the coast and met a guy who was a Vietnam veteran. I could tell there was something quite extraordinary about the scene because the guy was sitting there-he had screwed up arms, screwed up legs. He’d hit a mine or something-he was in bad shape. But he was surrounded by these Vietnamese people and it was almost palpable-you could feel the love. It was just coming in on this guy. He had a little kid on his lap; girls were sitting around; old guys sitting there. You could tell they loved this guy. I started talking to him and he said, ‘I got home and I was bitter, angry and for years and years and years I was just pissed off all the time. I’ve come back here and now I’m working on this project where we’re putting solar energy in this hospital in My Lai. And I feel at peace here.’ And he said, ‘Look, I don’t know if it’s doing any good really.’

But I thought, ‘Man, I don’t know if you’re making any electricity but you are doing the job; you are binding up the wounds. You’re a hero because I can smell that you are bringing people back together. You replaced hate with love.’

And we talked and talked and talked through the night and finally the thing was breaking up and he said, ‘Where are you going tomorrow?’ And I said, ‘We’re going up north to the DMZ.’ He said, ‘I got one suggestion: Go to My Lai.’

The next day we were driving in the van. There’s really only one good road that goes up the spine of Vietnam. There was a dirt road that teed off and our driver stopped and said, ‘My Lai is down that way about twenty klicks.’ And there were five of us and two said they wanted to go and two said they didn’t want to go and so I was it-I was the deciding vote. I don’t go for old battle sites-I don’t have enough imagination or something so I know I wouldn’t have gone but I respected that fellow’s opinion. So I said, ‘Yeah, let’s go.’

So we drove there and got to the place and we walked in through this arch and the whole area was covered with flowers someone had planted. It was just a field of flowers. And I didn’t even know I had all that sadness in me because I broke down, uncontrollably, just seeing all those flowers. I really didn’t think I needed any resolution but I guess I must have and I was glad for that. And whoever planted those flowers, I salute them, because that’s what you have to do.”