Stone Country

Between 1981-85, I wandered around the back roads of southern Indiana, sometimes alone, sometimes with my good friend and collaborator, author Scott Sanders. Bloomington was my new home—I’d come to teach photography at Indiana University. One doesn’t have to travel far before running into the ubiquitous presence of the limestone industry.

Stone quarrying is an extractive industry. Rolling hills are cut and sliced and chunks of it are shipped all over the country. The resulting landscape is a chaotic jumble of gaping holes and rusting steel. Quarries fill with water and become swimming holes—one quarry in Bloomington was considered among our best swimming spots until it was found to be contaminated with deadly PCB’s, dumped from the local Westinghouse plant. People drive cars into abandoned quarries and use the auto bodies for target practice. As Scott points out, the quarries are places of violent activity. I suppose I see them as a kind of elemental battleground where man wages war upon nature.

There is, however, another side to be looked at. For nearly every hole in our backyard here in the stone belt, the serpentine outcrop of building-grade limestone that stretches roughly 20 miles from Bloomington south to Bedford, there is a building or monument somewhere. It is intriguing to identify some mammoth hole in the ground as mother to the Empire State Building. I have followed blocks of Indiana ripped from the ground at Independent Limestone Co. trucked to Bybee Stone for milling and on to the National Cathedral in Washington for carving and installation.

Nature ultimately triumphs; given enough time the land begins to revert to a more natural state and man’s presence begins to disappear. The quarries become new habitats for plants and animals. I’ve seen red foxes hunting among stone piles in broad daylight.

Another aspect of the photographs included in the book concerns portraits of men who work with limestone in quarries and mills. These are blue-collar workers whose fathers and fathers’ fathers made their livings battling massive blocks of stone. I wanted to see through the eyes of my new neighbors to gain insight into their ideas about nature, labor and life.

Most of the photographs in the book were made with an 8×10” view camera—something of a fossil of a camera in our electronic age and somehow appropriate for photographing an antique industry that deals in fossils. The photographs in this book are not to be seen as objective documents. Rather they are intended as personal responses, aspiring toward the poetic, to some thoughts and feelings, some experiences I’ve had in my travels in stone country.

 

Update

When Gary Dunham, Director of Indiana University Press, suggested that Scott and I consider an entirely fresh, new revised edition of Stone Country, I jumped at the chance. Collaborating with Scott was one of highlights of my career. It was tremendous fun to travel around and share our experiences and insights; and the prospect of working together and building something new was too good to pass up. Our respective careers had taken us far away from limestone in the 30 years since the publication of the original book and I was genuinely curious about what we would find now.

We began by driving to B.G. Hoadley Stone Co. to meet with Pat Fell Barker and her son, Dave Fell, who run the company. They were strong supporters of the original project and we sought their advice as we started up again. How had the industry changed in 30 years? What should we see? Who should we talk to? And were any of the stone workers who appeared in the original book still working for Hoadley? As it happened, the man in the cover photograph, “Blockmarker,” one of my favorite photographs depicting the struggle between man and nature and the massive scale of the stone industry, was still employed at Hoadley. However, the next day was to be his last—he was about to retire. 

The following day found us face to face with Larry Anderson, performing more or less the same tasks as he had three decades earlier—grading and marking chunks of limestone freshly ripped from the earth. I re-photographed him standing on a block of stone in a field of stone blocks. 

And so Scott and I were off again working on Stone Country: Then & Now, keeping the best writing and photographs from the original edition but adding new materials to bring the industry up to date and, I suppose, to show how we had changed as artists as well. Quarries and mills today are safer and quieter and more automated than they were 30 years ago. Workers are younger. Computers cut stone around the clock.

For the “Works” chapter the Empire State Building and Flatiron and Union Station and other iconic American buildings are joined by the new Yankee Stadium; the Apple Store on Chicago’s Magnificent Mile; and the Pentagon, a section of which was damaged by the attack on 9/11. Independent Limestone Co. provided the stone and Bybee the expert milling, so that the contractors could match up the repairs with the original stone as seamlessly as possible. 

I now use a medium format digital camera for my work. And Photoshop allows me to stitch panoramas and overlay images in ways that weren’t really possible in the film era. 

And it occurs to me that much of my work as a photographer addresses the element of time. The idea of “then and now,” of observing change incrementally, as only photography’s attention to minute detail allows, has been a central focus in my long term projects. It’s a way of linking past and present, of addressing memory. The limestone series was my first sustained project after moving to Indiana, so there is something fitting about revisiting it as I retire and measure how much I’ve changed in the last 35 years.

Maxica Williams

From 2012-15 I had some breast infections—I paid for my own ultrasound and mammogram. They found that I had Stage 1 breast cancer. My kids stayed with me at my step-grandmother’s apartment before the cancer. Pink Fund paid for 6 months of recovery but my step-grandmother sold her apartment building and we ended up at Olive Branch Mission Shelter. We had our own room but it had no doors.

I had been misdiagnosed—I had Stage 3 breast cancer. Three years ago I had a double mastectomy and 16 nodes removed from my left arm. I had 6 months of chemotherapy. I was in the process of buying a house (I had a credit score of 715) but had to use the money for my chemo. During that time I cared for my kids, took them to school each day.

A nun at Catholic Charities, saw how hard it was for us at Olive Branch and arranged for a different shelter. Someone had stolen my wigs, my head scarves. There was no heat. The nun brought me head scarves to keep warm. She got us into Madonna House near Wrigley Field. The staff watched out for me—we had keys and could lock our doors. My kids loved the place and the workers and had lots of friends. New Hope Apartments helped find us permanent stable housing—we’ve been here a year.

I just returned to school. I’ll be getting a degree in Business Administration with a concentration in Finance from University of Phoenix on-line. I’ll graduate in May 2019, and then go on for my Masters. I want to work with homeless and cancer survivors to help them deal with their problems and to pay back what people did for me.

David Ernest Busch

After working as an auto and bus mechanic for 20 years, 10 as a union mechanic, I returned to writing. I worked in the family business until it failed in 1992. I was 37. I started living in my car. 80% of my meals the past 20 years have come from dumpsters in part because I refuse to take money from the government because conservatives are always accusing poor people of taking handouts. So I only eat food that society throws away. I also organize 4 different “Food Not Bombs” collectives. They are a global anarchist movement. When I was a working class bus mechanic and a typical American consumer, I would go to a market and buy foods advertisers wanted us to eat and my health was not good. I wasn’t eating nutritious food and my budget didn’t allow me to buy more nutritious organic foods wealthy people could afford. But as a homeless person, I discovered eating from dumpsters of wealthy people’s markets like Whole Foods was healthier than the food marketed to the average American.

Charlene Daniels

I became homeless about 5 years ago. I’m a hillbilly. I lived in a small town in Tennessee where everyone was kin to me. My mom never did like me. I wanted to come to Venice because I knew my family wouldn’t come here. You have to watch it—the gangs and stuff. I’m here with my husband. I’ve had my dog, Sadie Mae, for a year. Got her for my birthday.

I live in a tent behind Gold’s Gym. This is the only place that can fit all my art stuff and clothes. I like decorating and drawing. What the cops don’t take I manage to keep. I’m waiting for my Section 8 voucher. I want to get off the streets like everyone else. The shelters split couples up. No pets.

We stay at the Lincoln Inn for almost a week after I get my Social Security check. The rest goes to food. We try to keep an eye on everyone. Help them out with food. Everyone comes to me. We give them snacks, money if they need it. When me and Laz have no money I’ll panhandle. I tell people exactly what I’ll use it for—I won’t lie.

It’s not fun to have people look at you like they do. One time I was just walking when a man called me “garbage.” I was really depressed.

It’s dangerous on the streets It’ll drain everything inside of you.

Betty Evans

Anything Betty needed, Betty got. I had sticky hands. I got arrested for retail theft: Two little girls’ tops, 2 pants for my girls and a lady’s top for me. I guess they had good security—“Ma’am, can you come with me.” The DA wanted a 90-day sentence but the judge gave me 9 days in Wheaton for a felony conviction. He saw I came from a domestic violence marriage.

People think the homeless are all on drugs. You can become homeless. I was messing with the wrong people. I was living at 36th and Parnell in Bridgeport with 2 kids. The landlord, Dino, started drinking. He was a beautiful landlord but he started messing with a young Czech woman and stopped paying his mortgage—he was buying her fancy clothes. Dino lost the building and the people who bought it said we had to get out in the spring. I was evicted and ended up homeless with my son. I stayed with my brother for 6 months. We had to find a shelter that would take me and my adult son, Don, who is in his 30’s and autistic. We stayed for like 7 months at Amani House until I got my own place.

Ali Al-Hassan

I been trying to figure out myself. I researched best places to be homeless. I said, “I’ll go to Venice.” I was contemplating living in an RV. On October 6, 2017, my cousin died—he was 18 years old, a swimmer. He died in practice.*

After his death I came here to figure out who I wanna be while doing what I love, which is working with my physical intelligence or gift and try to cultivate my emotional intelligence. I’m trying as hard as I can to be a better human being.

*I had my own business in Pittsburgh—prepackaged healthy foods. I booked a one-way ticket to LAX. From the time I made the decision until the flight was 6 hours. Left my house, left my business. I wanted to find myself. I’m doing what I love—working out. Researching, reading. Marcus Aurelius’ Meditations means a lot to me. He was emperor of Rome who let go of everything. The idea of stoicism. To live minimally.

I’m living in a van that I rent. When I came here I challenged myself to stop social media. It’s over a year. I use the public library and read articles. I take challenges on food—I fast for 24-48 hours. Just coffee, water, cigarettes. I still have a house in Pennsylvania. I’m still in touch with my family. My brother is a PhD electrical engineer. My mom visited last year from Saudi Arabia. They came to Pennsylvania and she had a panic attack. They bought me a ticket. I went to Pennsylvania for 10 days. My mom didn’t judge me and said, “I hope you find yourself.”

Don’t judge people. You don’t know their story. Everyone is on their own journey.

Thomas Gordon

First time I was homeless I was 14 years old. I was kicked out of the house. There were 7 of us kids—I was the oldest. My dad died when I was 6, my mom when I was 12. My mom’s brother took us in but I wouldn’t obey the rules. The choice was obey or get out. I couldn’t do it—I was tired of doing everything.

I worked at a pizza parlor. My boss helped me get an apartment in Bridgeport. I dropped out of my first year of high school; got into trouble at 16 and got locked up. I was behind bars from age 20-28. When I got out my life totally changed. I could fix anything. I got a job building houses until I got injured—6 herniated discs. I got on disability. I’ve had housing on and off since then.

On September 1, 2016, I moved back to Uptown and set up a tent under the Lawrence Avenue viaduct on Lake Shore Drive. I’d heard about Uptown Tent City and I wanted to totally get involved; got a propane stove and tank and I started cooking for the community. Set up a storage tent to keep things for survival purposes. There were about 25 of us under Lawrence viaduct and about 20 under Wilson.

I got elected mayor of Tent City. I’m always helping people. In February I bought 6 cases of propane and took it to Tent City. We had heaters. I got a fire extinguisher because we’ve had tents catch on fire.

We have couples out here. They separate couples in shelters. People want to stay with family members. We help each other. I’m homeless but I’m happy. I’m doing what I enjoy doing: helping people.

Robert Henderson

I was in the streets, a gangbanger. I was a bodyguard for a street chief. He gave me powdered cocaine, which gave me energy. I stayed up for 10 days without sleep. Years later I went to the penitentiary—I was sentenced to 10 years for robbery. I did three terms. After prison I dealt crack cocaine for 5 years. I got hooked—I thought I could break away from it, but I couldn’t. It was just a matter of time before I lost everything. That was my downward spiral over 20 years to becoming homeless.

I didn’t like the shelters. I’d ride the train all night, or stay at O’Hare Airport or in parks, depending on the weather. Sometimes I’d go to Stroger Hospital to get placed in a nursing home. You could stay up to 60 days.

I had enough sense that I was tired of doing what I was doing. I had a religious upbringing but I lost contact with God and my spiritual background. God knows the heart.

The street chief I worked for thought I was cheating him on the dope money and shot me in the head but I survived. That’s when I started to turn my life around. I still had an addiction issue at first but nine years ago I checked myself into a treatment center at Salvation Army. You ain’t gonna beat them streets—sooner or later they’re gonna catch up with you. I’ve been clean for nine years. I’m living at a senior living residence run by Chicago Housing Authority.

I hit all the bases—that’s my life story.

Richard McClarin

I started using crack after my honorable discharge from the Air Force. I felt my life was empty. I became a male prostitute and a predator for people with money off and on from 1990-2013. Crack cocaine and Jack Daniels made me feel better, gave me a feeling of usefulness. I was tired of being on the street, tired of selling my body to men and women. I had contracted HIV—I thought I was going to die from AIDS.

I finally came to the Boulevard, a shelter for homeless people with medical issues. I go to a meeting at Above & Beyond addiction treatment center every day and share my experiences, strength and hope so that others don’t have to make the same mistakes I made.

Dave Figman

“They caught one prisoner, a German Jew, and he had a can with a false bottom. This German-American SS guard was in charge of us at the camp at Budzyn and he opened the can and found gold pieces. You know what they did to this prisoner? They put an electric wire around his throat and one to his penis. And we had to kill him. Do you believe this? The Jews had to kill him. They had us wrap the wire around him, electric wire to his penis and his throat. He was spinning around and everyone got to hit himkilled him right away. It’s a shame to tell this. The Jews had to kill somebody. It’s not easy to talk about. Before this the Germans killed a couple of other prisoners who refused to cooperate. They said to us, ‘If you don’t do it, we’ll kill you too.’ …

I was liberated in Germany. I was a young man. I went to Israel and fought in two wars in 1948 and 1956. I could have come to the US straight from Germany in 1945 but I said, ‘No. I better go first to Israel and fight by the Israeli Army.’ We went from Germany to France to an army base in Marseilles. We created an army from people who survived in Russia. We were there a couple of months, maybe a year and everyone was studying how to operate a machine gun. When we got to Israel we were already an army that could fight the Arabs.

In 1948 it was a nice war, beautiful war. Our army was stretched so thin. We didn’t have enough soldiers to cover all the fronts. We didn’t have enough rifles and ammunition. There were two rifles for every ten people. We were so happy to find out the Jordanians nearby got the artillery and didn’t use it even. We went in there during the night and took everything from them while they were sleeping. And so we survived 1948 with a little army. 99% was boys from the camps, from the Holocaust.”

Hans Finke

“I was in Bergen-Belsen a few days and we could see there was no way to survive that camp. There was no work anymore. They wouldn’t actually gas you but they let you die. There was typhoid- we had lice. As it was I run into one German criminal who was in charge of one of the tents in my camp in Auschwitz III-Buna. And since he knew I was an electrician- I had to make him a heating plate one day so he could cook his own souphe said, ‘What are you doing here? You are an electrician.’

The next morning during roll call I was called out with another fellow, a Polish Jew, and we are told we should go to the place where you get rid of your lice with DDT and we were washed and told we should go to the barracks where there are tradesmen. There was a wooden cot, no straw, no nothing to sleep for us but we thought we were in a Hilton, because that was at least clean. We came to the electrician’s workshop in the morning…

We had to go every morning and check the whole camp and electrical work we had to do. We had to go to the dog kennel- the SS women had the dogs. And when they didn’t look I would steal the food from the dogs. The dogs had meat. One SS woman would come back and say, ‘Did you eat the meat?’ ‘No, I would never eat meat from the dog,’ I would say. And we would go to the different watchtowers. In those days they were already short on young soldiers so we had an old soldier, 60 years old, Wehrmacht, not an SS man. He would go with his gun behind us as we went from watchtower to watchtower that surrounded the camp. In some of the watchtowers again there were old German soldiers and since I tell you only the truth I have to tell you that in some of the watchtowers those fellows who were way up there alone would say, ‘Sit down and here you got some jam and here you got some bread.’ There were decent people left, there’s no doubt about it. And that German soldier who went around with us, he knew about that too. He saw it. So God bless him, I hope he survived….

Even after liberation 13,000 people died in that camp. We were asked by the British Army engineer to help him because we knew the wiring. So they sat me in a jeep- by that time I was down to around 80 lbs., my bones were sticking out and I could hardly sit in the jeep- just to show them where electrical power was and what had to be done. So that was my first job then and I had the satisfaction to see the camp burned down completely.”

Rena Grynblat

“I was 18 and then they closed up the ghetto—no more can’t get out. Soon after I had a baby, little baby boy and he was lost. Would you like to see his picture? We stayed in Warsaw for a while but we knew in Warsaw very few are going to survive. My husband came from a small town, Radomsko, near Czestochowa, that’s where they seen the Virgin Mary, so we went to his place for a while with the baby and we kept running; when they were closing the ghetto I took the baby and ran from one ghetto to another.

His sister lived in another town, Staszow, and her husband was a policeman so being a policeman he had a right to live, a Jewish policeman. My husband had papers that he’s a useful Jew because every morning they took him at 6 in the morning to do all kind of digging. I was not a useful Jew because I had no job except taking care of the baby… A lot of girls had kids at that time because nobody knew if they were pregnant, because when the bombs are falling we got so scared we didn’t get our monthly periods for years….I had the baby and I had it until he was about a year and a half old and he was the cutest little boy. His name was Jurek Trajman…

I took my baby and I ran away to Staszow, that’s where my sister-in-law was and her husband the policeman. ‘You leave the baby here with me,’ she said, ‘and you have to get out of here, because they came already taking away everybody here…I’ll say it’s my baby.’ So I said, ‘Okay. The minute it’s clear, I’ll come back and pick up the baby.’

I looked out the window and I saw all those cows. It was a pasture and people are leading a normal life, Polish people, and that cow has a calf and I say ‘Oh my God, why couldn’t I be a cow. I wouldn’t have to run away now and leave my baby. Nobody would be after us. Why didn’t God make me a cow?’…

I at that time went to Wasaw to get a job as a maid and I had a paper that I am not Jewish. I went back to get the baby after 2 days. Nothing. No baby, no town, no Jews. It was just hopeless. They said that they took the baby on a wagon with hundreds of people to Sandomierz to the train station and they took him to Treblinka. That’s what they said. I don’t believe it because in my heart I know that he’s around somewhere. And I still keep looking. If I see somebody that’s- he’d probably be in his 40’s, maybe more- and he has the the most beautiful navy blue eyes and I say maybe this is my baby, maybe this is my son. And I said, ‘I wish I would have seen him being taken away; I would not look for him anymore. Then I know this is it; that’s the end.’ But this way you go with a burden all through your life thinking what happened to him. Maybe he’s grown; maybe he lives next door.”

Moses Wloski

Although Polish Jewish refugees who streamed through the town of Wolkowisk told horror stories of German atrocities, the Non-Aggression Pact signed by Hitler and Stalin afforded the Jews of White Russia the illusion of peace. Then one morning the Blitzkrieg roared through and Moses Wloski found himself behind German lines. Eventually he was boarded onto a transport headed for Auschwitz with Wolkowisk’s 2500 remaining Jews. Moses was one of only 250 men and women allowed into the labor camp. The rest were gassed.

At the end of 1944, Moses was relocated from Auschwitz to Burgerhaven, outside the Polish harbor of Danzig, where the Third Reich maintained a naval base. Moses repaired U-boats for several months. And then the death march began. Roused from their barracks in the middle of one night the prisoners were marched in a long column. They received no food and were frequently beaten by SS guards. If a prisoner fell he was shot on the spot. Hundreds perished.

When the retreating German Army overtook them on the highway, the prisoners were forced to yield, jumping into trenches by the roadside. As night fell, Moses decided to crawl to a nearby woods. From there he saw a farmhouse and although still dressed in his striped prison uniform, he knocked on the door. A farmer opened up, gave Moses bread but fearing for his own life, asked Moses to leave. Too tired to continue, Moses climbed into the adjacent hay loft and collapsed as soon as his body stretched out on the soft hay.

Early next morning the farmer found Moses in the loft and offered him a deal. Moses could stay in the house if he agreed to try to prevent the advancing Russian soldiers from looting and burning the property. The man thanked Moses and fled. Shortly thereafter Germans set up a line of artillery within sight of the farm and opened fire. He found himself in the middle of a battle between the 2 armies. The door of the house suddenly swung open and a Russian officer entered; Moses was liberated. A week later he was still recuperating in the farm house when 2 Russian soldiers rode up on horseback and recruited Moses to act as a translator. The Russians were looking for girls. A horse was commandeered for him to ride. Moses could see the men were drunk; he thought to himself, “I survived the war and now here is my end.”

The three rode to a manor and approached a young man who identified himself as a French prisoner whom the Germans had sent to work for a local Polish land owner. When the owner appeared one of the Russians shot him in the head for being a capitalist. Seeing his master lying in a pool of blood the dead man’s dog let out an eerie, heartrending wail. The Russian silenced the dog with a bullet .

They rode on to another house where 4 more Russian soldiers were hiding, friends of the ones who had taken Moses. “Who is he?” one inquired pointing to Moses. “A Jew,” came the response. “Kill him,” chimed in one of the others. He was then warned by the ringleader to leave and return quickly with girls. “Otherwise I’ll do to you what I did to the land owner.”

Moses galloped away. He returned to the farmhouse where he had been staying and learned that his Russian captors were deserters. Shortly after Moses left them they were arrested by the Russian Army and executed. It was time, Moses realized, to get out of there.

Miso Vogel

Taken prisoner by Nazis. Interred Novaky, Slovakia 1941-1942. Transferred to Auschwitz 1942-October 1944. Oranienburg October-December 1944. Dachau December 1944-January 1945. Landsberg January-February-March 1945. Escaped March 1945. All his family murdered in concentration camps. MOTHER: CORNELIA died September 23, 1942, Auschwitz. Age 42. SISTER: MARTA died September 23, 1942, Auschwitz. Age 10. BROTHER: MAXMILLIAN died September 23, 1942, Auschwitz. Age 8. BROTHER:ARPAD killed Lublin Majdanek, May 1942. Age 16. SISTER: ROZSIE died June 1942, Auschwitz. Age 20. FATHER: HEINRICH VOGEL died November 1942, Auschwitz. Age 44. Owner of a cattle business in Topolcany before the war.

Of a family of seven, Miso the only survivor. Assigned to a work detail at Auschwitz. “ARBEIT MACHT FREI.” He searched belongings of incoming prisoners stunned after days, weeks on the transports- no food- packed in like cattle- awaiting torture, death at the hands of the Nazis. A badly faded photograph shows Miso catching a bundle of clothes, frozen by a camera in mid-flight at the rail station of Auschwitz. He was just a teenager.

After escaping from a concentration camp deep inside Germany, Miso joined the U.S. Army. On furlough at the end of the war he returned to his home town in Slovakia to obtain records (birth certificate, medical history, etc.) needed for U.S. citizenship. The same Slovaks who had stolen his father’s cattle business and family home greeted him at the front door of his house. “We thought you were gassed. Thought you were burned like all the rest.” Miso’s records, all the records of the Jews, were, like the Jews themselves, gone forever from that part of the world.

Mieczyslaw Weinberg

“Once I tell a neighbor of mine he should stay by the boards, to let me in- I will come back from the Aryan side by 6 in the evening when it’s dark. And he wait for me. His name was Simcha Offinger, he was from Trade Mechanic School with me.

When I come back to the ghetto from the Aryan side I saw that he let in a lady. But in that time I listened a German is running because they got on their soles special iron nails, and from far away you can listen if they are marching or they are running. So now I hide in the other side of the wall so he should not see me. He pulled out the woman. He got in one hand the revolver, a Luger, and the other a flashlight. He shot my friend in his mouth, killed him. Then he bent down to see what he did and I saw I been at risk he kill me too, he will turn and he’ll see me. So I hit him with a karate chop in his neck. I was a middleweight boxer, a karate man too. Then I lay down and with my leg on his throat I strangled him. We pulled him into the ghetto. We got to wash the blood from my friend off the ground so no one should see something happened here. And we disrobed the German.

They got there in the ghetto hundreds of dead people each day from hunger. We put him on the wagon with the Jewish dead people and put maybe 25 or 30 dead Jews on him and took him to the Jewish cemetery, the Gesia Cemetery. His uniform was burned up, I don’t know who stole the revolver, I beat up 3 guys and maybe they took it. That revolver was worth a lot of thousands of zlotys, because it was a really German Luger. This was the story. You got every day such stories in the ghetto.”

Ida Paluch

“My first memories really come to me when I was three and a half year old in 1942 when all the Jews from Sosnowiec were herded into the ghetto… At that moment when my mother was separated from us children she got very upset and panicky and she ran to the first building that she could approach and we ran after her and as she ran upstairs we tried to catch up with her and she ran to the third floor and she jumped from the window…

My aunt took me into hiding. She had a friend, a Christian man, his name was William Maj, who came to visit her; he was like a business associate before the war. He took a walk to the ghetto and as he came there just by chance I was walking with my aunt, holding on to her skirt and as he saw us behind the barbed wire fence we came to talk to him. He said, ‘who is this little girl?’ So she explained that her sister committed suicide and I’m an orphan, an extra mouth to feed. He offered to take me with him, but there was a condition: He said that he’ll never give me back. And she handed me over the barbed wires and that was the last time I saw my family.

The next memory I have is when he took me to the city of Czestochowa. So when he came with me to his wife, he had me in a coat and he brought me on a train and he opened the coat, it was Christmas time, and he said to his wife, ‘This is your Christmas gift.’ …

And from then on everything would be wonderful but my Polish father, to earn a living he took a horse and buggy and went to neighboring villages and he usually took with him in the buggy tobacco, sugar, merchandise in the village to sell and that was forbidden, because most of the merchandise like that was supposed to be given to the German Army and that was against the law what he did. So the last trip he took was with his 2 cousins. He went to the village of Oduz; when he came there the Gestapo was there, somebody turned them in and they were shot on the spot all 3 of them… From then on we had a very bad life…

On the streets of Czestochowa I learned to hate Jews and to be afraid of them. I heard from other children and from neighbors that the Jews catch Polish children. They kill them and they use the blood for matzo for Passover… There was a lot of talk about Jews and mainly about the Jews killed Jesus. I went to church every Sunday every holiday and I kneeled there…

So when the war was over and my Polish mother decided to take me to the Jewish school, when I went there I recognized that I am not in my environment…I figured out those must be those terrible Jews. And I was so afraid, I was so petrified that I decided first chance I have I have to run away from here… I started to scream and yell, ‘Help,help! Jews are taking me for matzo, Jews are gonna kill me.’ And almost I caused a pogrom. And people came with sticks…

Later my own father, my natural father came… and I was taken forcefully to the city of Sosnowiec…All I wanted to do was run, jump from the window—I was afraid of those Jews.”

Henryk Werdinger

“They took me to work in the quarry at Mauthausen. Oh, that was bad. The worst part was that you didn’t know what kind of rock to take. You had to go down stone steps, way down I don’t know how many stone steps, real steep, rocks all over. You pick up a rock, you go up all those stone steps and walk all the way to the camp—a few miles— and put the stone down. In the meantime the SS is all around you. If you took too big a stone you won’t make it. If you take a little stone they beat you; they make you run to the fence and I witnessed that many times. They started to scream, beat you and say, ‘Run!’ Everyone knew if you run to the fence, you’re dead because from the watchtowers they will shoot you and besides the fence is electrified. They beat you so hard you’re practically dead anyway. So the biggest dilemma was what kind of rock to take…

They took a group of us and they sent us by train to Linz II, a satellite camp of Mauthausen to work at Hermann-Goring-Works. The conditions were really bad at Linz II. The longer we were there the worse it got. Hunger- that was the main thing. With every step, you tried to economize your energy. If I was walking I tried to figure what is the shortest way. One step less- everything was an effort. I could hardly walk; I was so weak from hunger.

I saw people, I witnessed this: can you imagine eating a raw dead rat? Naturally they died. They would have died anyway. Some of the non-Jewish Polish and Russian prisoners once in a while were able to get packages from home, so they used to go pick them up. And on the way to the barracks the others would attack them and get away. So they came after one- I saw it. They attacked him and there was granulated sugar there in one package and it spilled into the mud. And after they left I picked up that sugar with the mud and I ate it. There was mud and sugar mixed. That’s as far as I went personally.”

Irma Morgensztern

“When I escaped the Warsaw ghetto, the night I was escaping, I was going through the wires and there was a lot of glass on top of the wall. The Germans were shooting to me, but I escaped. I was running fast and I ran to one tall building and in that building Mr. Pietruszka took me to his house. He was waiting for me there. It was set up by my parents…

When they took me out from Warsaw I had different papers. Pietruszka gave me papers that I am Barbara Nosarzewska. He got the papers from the church after a girl that was dead, but close to my age. So when I jump out from the Warsaw wall he had the papers with him. So immediately I became Barbara Nosarzewska… So while I was sitting with the cows in the pasture I was thinking to myself, ‘That’s me or not me?’ Because here I have to remember if I survive I am Irma Morgansztern but I’m not allowed to say it now. I was a kid and this was sitting in my head…

It was terribly tragic the night before I left the Warsaw ghetto when my parents knew I’m going to be gone the next night. So we were sitting and talking and they were trying to put in my head who I am, that I’m from Warsaw and my name is Barbara Nosarzewska; I never should forget. My mother taught me all the Polish catechism that you go to the first communion. Every night before I left the ghetto she was examining me from all the prayers, if I know all the prayers, so in case the German caught me and asked me, ‘Well what do you do on Monday night? Do you go to church and what do you do?’ I will know what to say. And on the other hand they were trying to put into the other side of my brain that after the war I am Jewish and my name is Irma Morgensztern.

The night before I left they were telling me to remember those things. They were sitting and mom was cutting my finger nails; my father was cutting my toe nails. We were crying all night. They were telling me only that I can tell my name after the war, not before, to nobody.”

Jadzia Strykowska

“Before I smuggled out from the ghetto to join the underground my mother gave me a little celluloid tube and I put there in a poison pill and my mother gave me some valuable stones to put in there… After my capture I was sitting in the cattle car cutting out my pictures, the faces of my mother and the faces of my father. I also cut out a little picture of myself because I wanted to remind myself how I really look. And I had a picture of my brother and me and we were in a summer place the year before the war started. Then I also cut out a picture of my Zionist platoon leader, Icek Rosenblatt and I cut around the picture of my platoon, Beit-Shan, that we made before we left and I rolled them up all tightly, I left the poison pill, I took out the stones and I put in the pictures…

We arrived on a very freezing January evening to Bergen-Belsen. So we went in to get a shower and right before we went in I took my tube and I put it in my rectum. They searched you again in your hair and you had to open the mouth and some of the people they even checked internally, whether they didn’t hide any valuables. I was lucky-I passed… It was miserable there. They had us schlep stones from one place to the other just to wear us out so they wouldn’t even have to use a bullet on us. And so every day the circumstances got harder and harder. My solace were my pictures. When I came in in the evening I used to unroll them and look at them and I said, ‘My goodness, I am not from stone. I am from people. I am from a family.’…

We were in Skokie in 1977 when the situation came out with the Nazis that they wanted to march here. This was already too much. Before that we didn’t talk for a few reasons. People did not want to listen. They told us to forget about it, to start a new life, to live here for today not for yesterday. It’s not a question of forgetting; we never, ever forgot. But as I say we got involved in everyday life and when the Nazis wanted to come here under our windows, so to say, that was a little too much and it kind of woke us up and we decided not to let it happen because freedom of speech is not freedom to slander. They legally later on won that they can walk but they got afraid to walk here because they knew that we would never let them get out alive from here… When it was over we started speaking, we started telling our stories.”

Jakob Schwartz

“They put us again in the train- it took a week to go from Dora to Bergen-Belsen- and we had to sit on the wooden floor, packed like herring, rows and rows next to each other. They gave us one loaf of bread, period. And that had to last- but we didn’t know for how long it had to last. People were dying in the train left and right. Next to me was a Jewish doctor from Vienna and he was dying and it was real dark on the train. He kept on making noises. We were maybe the 4th row from the front and there were German soldiers with guns sitting in front of us. One of them said, ‘Quiet, quiet!’ But he wasn’t quiet because now I think he was unconscious. With his rifle the German started to beat us. He beat me horrible. As a matter of fact I couldn’t speak for a whole week. Nothing came out of me. Nothing would come out. After he beat me the German shot the guy and he was dead. The body, of course, stayed there all along. As a matter of fact I sat on him because it was more comfortable to sit on him than on the floor. I still have the aftereffects of that beating. And when I get tense I cannot talk.

Years later I became president of my hospital’s medical staff and chief of obstetrics at St. Margaret’s Hospital. I remember one day there were arguments back and forth among executive committee members. The discussion became heated. And I started to talk and nothing came out, not a word. I tried for maybe 10 minutes. And I never told them why. Sometimes now words come out, not exactly the right way. It’s only when I’m tense. I still have nightmares constantly. My wife wakes me up when I make noises during the night.

After the war I became a real workaholic- I constantly worked day and night, day and night, day and night. Then when I was 44 I had a heart attack but I had delivered 92 babies that month. 92 deliveries! All our effort is to make sure the mothers and babies are well and healthy. The Germans killed millions of children like nothing- you tell me is there a God?”

Kato Steiner

Katie Steiner was 19 years old when the Germans marched into Hungary on March 17, 1944. She was rounded up along with her parents, Louis and Rose, and a younger brother, Sandor, then moved to a ghetto in nearby Csorna. Prior to their arrest by the Nazis, a Catholic priest had offered to provide them with false papers and a safe hiding place. Katie’s mother refused, “I am born as a Jew. If I have to die, I die as a Jew.” Her father was sent to work in a labor camp.

On July 10 Katie, her mother and brother left the train station in Sarvar in a crowded transport. Four days later on a cool, fresh morning the doors were thrown open and everyone was forced out of the wagons and made to stand inspection on the train platform at Auschwitz. Dr. Josef Mengele motioned with his hands to the right or left depending upon the age and health of the prisoners. He asked Katie’s mother her age. Fiercely clutching her children Rose responded “42.” Mengele announced: “Ein jung, eine alte.” Katie’s mother and brother were sent to the left, Katie and several girlfriends from her village of Farad, to the right. As Rose was led away she cried out, “Kato”. Katie was frozen on the platform until an SS man hit her with a stick, “Raus.”

Katie and the others who had been sent to the right were taken to a building where they undressed, showered, were shaved head to toe, deloused and given prison clothes. She was issued a pair of wooden shoes and her prison number, 28339, was sewn onto the left sleeve of an ill-fitting uniform.

At the end of the first month, Katie, along with 20 girls from her village, volunteered to work at a camp in Allendorf in western Germany. Katie figured anywhere else was better than Auschwitz.

At Allendorf Katie worked in a munitions factory 8 floors underground. Her job was to remove the insides of unexploded hand grenades so that the gun powder could be reused. Katie and the others were given respirators and rubber gloves to prevent them from going blind like the Russian girls before them who handled the toxic powder without any protection.

From August 1944 until March 1945 Katie remained at Allendorf. At 6 a.m. on March 25 she and seven or eight hundred prisoners were marched out of the camp. By 10 o’clock the Americans had occupied Allendorf. Given no food for 3 days, they were forced to travel about 40 kms. on foot under cover of darkness. On the fourth night Katie and 3 friends left the long line of prisoners and hid in a barn. Hearing the shouts of SS guards they crawled beneath a haystack and waited.

The next day they doubled back and headed for the advancing American troops. They encountered a German woman who offered to fix them some breakfast; it was their first meal in 4 days. By the fifth day the Americans arrived and Katie and her friends rushed up to a fence by the road to cheer troops filing past. The soldiers gave them cheese, chocolate, and soap and housed them in the best hotel in Betz. For the first time in nearly a year Katie was free.